Wednesday, November 19, 2008


Seems like it was yesterday
When I saw your face
You told me how proud you were,
But I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside
But I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide
'Cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, ooh
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself..By hurting you
when u hurt someone...u will blamed like hell. When u hurt, no one cares. It's not fair to be like be like this....not fair. I'm not be the best...but i don't want to be the rest. I'm trying so hard to protect our relationship...but seems, I'm just the only one who do that. You never help and take any action. The word "bye" that u always's the end of everything....I don't know how much you care about me, how much you honest to me....but I hope...There is NO LIE between us......I'm hurt....I'm Hurt.....really Hurt......that I even couldn't bear it alone....I'm hurt....How could this happen to me?....

Wednesday, November 12, 2008


Who is friend to you? For me, friend is someone who very closes to you and know everything about you. He/she besides you when you get in trouble or problem. He/she encourages and give you support and never betray you. I got a few friends that very damn closes to me. haha....For example, Roney, Wilson and Hembray. They are very closes to me and they know almost 90% about my life. Surprisingly, we are cousins. hurm. So, what are the most important things that should exist in our friendship? Do you know why those my friends above still keep in touch to me and our friendship is still going on even we are in different places? Because...the most important in friendship are, understanding, honest, love, trust, share, humble, humour, tolerance, careness and listen. So, having friends is good, but keeping friendship is hard. In short, friend gives a lot of meaning to me. Friendship forever....

For my friends that I didn't written his/her name above, sorry....haha... I got so many friends, so can't mention all of you.

1 month to 3rd sem final exam

Now, I'm already in the 2nd year medical school. Overall, medicine isn't easy. Trust me. It needs a lot of commitment and time. This coming December, I'll sit for my 3rd sem final exam which is consist of 12 subjects. OMG.... I hope i can pass in this exam. I believe in God, and i believe that He is helping me.... Sometimes, I can't believe that I'm in UPM and doing medical study here. Because, I'm not good enough in the other students. May be, it's due to lack of confidence in myself. In other word, lack of of self- esteem. Lol... By the way, I know why I am here, what is my ambition and why I chose Medicine. It's all about LIFE. Talking about life, we know that life is short and we become older and older. I remember 1 quote..."aging is bad but it is interesting"....haha...I don't really know what is the meaning of this quote. Then, average age of man to live is 70 years old and for woman is 75 years old...It's not long, isn't it? I'm 20 years old now, and I still have approximately 50 years to live. What I'm gonna do within this period? Yeah, I have my own vision, dreams and all that stuff. I hope I can achieve it and later live without regret. I'm sure, all of us also want to do the same thing, right? Well, live happily, enjoy what are you doing and trust God that He Chose you.... not to be the tail but to be the head of all people. Peace!!