Confession of a broken heart...but...fighting Joel...

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Hey Joel...This post is to myself. Hope No one will comment this post...hehe..blek....

Few weeks ago, I've face a problem that very hard to explain. It's about a "Bad Love". It's Love that not allowed by nature...maybe??

I realised that, nothing I can do to protect that relationship. Every efforts that I put were just meaningless. That person even didn't trust me anymore. That person...ZE...decided to end just like that....I really can't accept the reasons why we were broken up. Almost 5 months we were known each other and suddenly ZE left me just like nothing. ZE thinks that it was the best way to solve our problem. I really hurt....in damn hurt that time....

Maybe I'm not good enough? Maybe I'm not love ZE enough?Maybe I'm over-controlled? or.........

Since then....I know, Love alone is not enough. It needs trust and humility. One thing I've learnt from this sweet memory is Love doesn't care who we are.....

I just hope ZE will happy with new life....new boyfriend....and new beginning...

This is maybe my fate.....loving a human...and that human didn't love me back...But it's ok...as long as that human will happy always....and I also will happy....

It's been a long time I kept this feeling that I love ZE very much.....and waiting ZE accept my heart and love....But it's ok if ZE reject me....I only hope the best for ZE and my love will never fade away to ZE....

I just want to tell ZE that I will always waiting....waiting to fall in love again...

Even I have to wait for a long time....it's ok....

and I hope this feeling will remain in my heart.....I hope no one will take it away from me.....I hope no one will appear in my life...I hope...no one will come and be my new .......hurm...

I wish ZE best of luck in everything you do......

Thanks for everything you've done to me.....

Thanks for hugs you gave me....and I miss it....

Last but not least....I will start a new life...without grief......I will prove that you are wrong for leaving me alone...in the middle of my journey.....

Don't worry...I will take care of myself....and be who I should to be.....Live in my own culture....Being a true medical student.....and never trust anyone....unless....my heart will re-open again by someone who is more better than you.....

I love you......