it's all about me

this is the list of all my stuff's brands...hehehe...

Watch: B.U.M (i'm sporty guy!)
Specs frame: Polo Sport (hehe..same reason with the above)
Formal Shoes: Traveller
Casual shoes: Lee Cooper and Power
Belt: Lee Copper
Wallet: Levi's
Formal Pant: Padini
Formal sleeve( long and short): Ready to Suit, SEED
Short Pant: forgot
Boxer: Renoma
t-shirt: Giardiano, SEED, Levi's, Paul Smith
Sandals: Everlast, Aqua, Sunway Lagoon

Body shampoo: Palmolive
Hair Shampoo: Loreal
Hair conditioner: Loreal
Facial foam: Nivea for men
Face Cream: Loreal Men Expert
Night Cream: Loreal Men Expert
Facial scrub: Loreal Men Expert and T3
Toothbrush: Oral B soft


sorry if there is spelling error...hehe

Holiday Semester 5

Hai semua, dah lama saya tak update blog saya ni kan?hehe....ok...kali ni, sy mau share pasal holiday sy la ni....

sebelum tuh kan, sy cerita sikit la pasal sem 5 pengajian sy di UPM. sy baru je habis Professional Exam 2. Thanks God, sy pass la tapi tak tau sy ada dalam list remedial class or not. I think ada la tuh....sebab, masa exam tempoh hari, memang teruk gila sy masa discussion untuk short case surgery. Haiz.....

pada 24 Jan, sy balik Sabah. hehe, best dan happy yang tak terkira....melonjak-lonjak hati ini balik tau...ya la kan. almost 7 months sy tak balik sabah. Sampai je kat airport, orang 1st yang sy nampak ialah Tapa sy.hehe...pastu Tama sy la...thanks la sama dorang...selalu support sy. pastu kami pg lunch kat Tanjung Aru punya restoran...sudah lupa nama restaurant tuh....pastu...kami pg rumah Abang Ipar kat Penampang. singgah sekejap...wa..seronok juga dapat berkawan dgn anak2 buah yang gemuk2 belaka tuh..haha...around 11.30am, kami pun bertolak balik ke Kiau. Malangnya, dlm perjalanan, kereta Tapa sy rosak. Haiz...jadi kami balik Kiau bersama2 dgn Abang sulung. Sampai je kat Kiau, alalal.....kakak sy terus2 tanya mana laptop dia...ya la...dia minta beli laptop dari KL ma....huhu...

tu la cerita 1st day sy sampai Sabah.

on the next few days....sy dan kawan2 pg jalan2 di KK. best tau!!!!kami sewa hotel kat Kampung Air(my goodness...)....rm65 per night....punya buruk hotel tuh....haiz...da la receptionist pun minta puji!!teda class tul....tp...takpe la...oh ya..lupa nak cerita, masa sy pg jalan2 di Centre Point kan, huhu...semua jurujual dan Promoter ckp Chinese dgn sy ni..isk..sandi tul. Pastu sy pg saloon, utk wash and blow rambut sy....uina...org tuh ....tdk percaya sy org Dusun!!!!My Goodness.....pastu kan..sy pg la tengok2 camera, promoter tu tanya2 sy ni Local ka org luar negara?...hahaha...wtf. sy juga ada jumpa kawan UMS sy...Cyril, thx buddy..sbb kasi kawan sy makan kfc...hurm..-.-"

Sabtu pulak, seawal jam 7 pagi, sy da bangun. Ni semua William punya pasal la...pagi2 da buat bising...dia sembahyang kanto tuh....hahahaha...sy ejek2 lagi dia...and dia punya kawan, Ganesh pun terbangun sebab2 dia la...Ok...cerita sabtu pula, kami pg jemput kawan kami di UMS.. Salahudin. hehe...best owh UMS....boleh masuk sesuka hati..hahahahahaha...pastu kami pg tengok2 Library UMS...wow...besar dan cantik....sumandak pun bykk!!!!!!!pastu kan, destinasi pertama kami ialah.....Centre point....kami makan Nasi Ayam CP...rm2.80 jak!!!!!!!murahnyerrrrr.......tp...nasi dia kan...alanut ni...ahahha...wtf...dia punya air pun kan..OMG...sy penjam mata bah minum air tuh...mcm ndak sanggup.....hahaha....sorry kpd Nasi Ayam CP punya orang k...pastu kan..kami jalan2 kejap...and...sy pg kedai Reflexology....huhu...minta urut kaki selama 30 Min...rm16...punya la sakit pompuan tuh urut...hahaha...lawak juga la...paling bestnya..ada perempuan korea kat sebelah sy...minta urut kaki juga...huhu.....dan..paling sandinya...tukang urut tuh ingat sy ndak pandai ckp BM...hahahahahahaha...Next destination...kami pg KK Square....hehe...wow..bestnya kat situ...byk baju cantik..tp..satu pun tak berkenan..semua style lama...mungkin stok yang tahun lalu kot...yang tak laku2 punya...sepa la juga mau beli kat sana...haiz...pastu...kami pun pg 1Borneo....for the 1st time...sy pg sana!!!!!!hahah...dorang ckp Besaaaaaaaaar betul 1B ni...aisk....ndak PON!!!!!!!kecik je....huhu...kami pg shopping kat parkson...tp hanya sy je yang beli barang...beli sansut Renoma...ahhahahaha..lawak tul....pastu kami pun pg tengok wayang Tooth fairy...damn boring!!!...haiz....

pastu kan..kami pun pg ke Indah Permai...sy ambil kunci rumah abg sy...and ambil baju kawan sy...pastu si William pun hantar sy ke Poly..hehe..sesampai di sana...uina..bestnya...tapi....tiba2 abg sy ni tak jadi balik rumah...haiz...sy ajak la si Erwin(gembala..ahha)....tapi dia ckp dia balik Kiau..dan mula la dia dgn cerita hantu kat rumah tuh...punya la sy takut...(tiba2 takut)...sebelum ni..sy jarang takut ba..haiz...ngeri tul...dan..akhirnya..sy pun mengambil keputusan mengajak kawan UMS sy...JJ Michael..ahha...uina..sanggup juga la dia dtg.....TQ to him aaa...

next day...sy dan JJ Michael....pun pg ke 1Borneo...uina..bestnya dpt jumpa kawan2...dorang si Arnold...Clayton....and..ntah sepa yang sorang tuh...da lupa...ahahah...kami makan Lunch kat Apple Cafe..uina..ndak biasa sy dgn 'peraturan' kat cafe tersebut..punya la sandi...ahhaa....and..sy terjumpa juga kawan2 ums lain tapi dorang buat teda ja ni...sedih juga la..mcm tidak kena layan sbg kawan je..takpe la.....-.-"

pastu kan..kami pun pg Karaoke di k-box...wow...suara JJ Michael sgt MERDU!!!!!!!!!!!....kalau la dia ikut AF,...confirm menang ni....haiz...tp dia kunun ndak mau...pastu...kawan2 sy pg main snooker..sy pula pg jalan2 di 1B....hehe..lawak juga la..best...pastu...sy pg jumpa cousin sy..si Benjo dgn kawan2 dia...hehe...lepak2 dgn dorang sampai jam 4.45pm..huhu..tu pun sbb ada org yang bikin panas muncul depan mata..haha..hilang terus selera mau bercerita dgn cousin....pastu kan..sy pun pg ke Guardian membeli belah..huhu..dan pastu..sy pg ke wawasan Plaza....tujuannya...sbb mau jumpa kawan2 dr semenanjung yg dtg ke sabah utk melancong..huhu.....penat pun penat..sedih juga time tu..sbb sy sorang2 lagi kat centre point...jam 7pm+++...coursemates sy pun dtg...kami makan malam kat Waterfront:Masakan Melayu...huhu...sedap tp...tu la..parents sy dan abg sy balik2 call suruh balik...jadi..sy pun dgn berat hatinya balik ke Poly....

tu la cerita last week....pastu....kan....hari Selasa lepas...sy dgn coursemates serta, beberapa org kawan dari Kiau pg ke Poring...BESTNYERRRRR........rasa nak pg sana lagi owh....hehe..

overall...sy sgt enjoy dgn holiday sy.....Ahad ni...plan pg Pulau Manukan pula...hehe...dgn kawan2...hehe...harap2 semuanya berjalan dgn lancar...

oh ya...minggu ni juga..sy telah mengalami kegagalan dalam percintaan...ahhaha..lawaknyerrr...tapi tak pe la....da takde jodoh..nak buat mcm mane....(eleh..tirip semenanjung sudah ni..apa barang...ahha..)...

ok la...mau pg lepak di rumah kawan dulu ni..see you...muah...;-)

Life is short...

Hello guys,
It has been awhile i didn't write anything in my Blog. Lol. Well, I'm quite busy with my clinical years. I was started my clinical years 3 months ago at Hospital Serdang. It was fun but sometimes, I'm quite depressing because I don't have enough knowledge. haiz....

Saya juga dipilih menjadi ketua kumpulan posting Perubatan ini. Saya agak tertekan dan penat sebab saya harus menghubungi supervisor sebab nak tanya bila kelas kami yang seterusnya. haiz. dah la takda kredit nak sms dan call...haiz...i also have to sms my friends to inform them whether we have class or not...haiz..haiz....

during this posting i've learnt a lot from Dr., friends and seniors. hehe...my 1st venepuncture was on Iban guy named Mathew. i still remember him, coz i was the 1st person clerked his histroy!! However, sometimes i couldn't manage to take blood from patient because of some reasons. For example, they are too fat, the veins are so narrow, can't see the vein, they refused....bla bla...

overall, semuanya ok la...MOCK exam?...hurm...i think...ok la...hehe

currently, i'm doing surgery posting at Hospital Kuala Lumpur and Hospital Serdang. Frankly said, i still blur about my new posting. but, i hope i can learn and study slowly!

oh ya... i was shocked about the 3 students from UTAR who died last sunday (1st Nov). I realised that life is so short. we even don't know when we will die!!!! They are so young to die...and....for me....so sayang la...hurm.....i'm quite sad about the tragedy even i don't know them.

oh ya...i got new nephew last 2 weeks....hehe....his name is Travis Casper....omg...i can't wait to see and hug him.

hurm....about my life here...ada sikit tension la....haiz..so many problems come....study...friends....family.......love...
wtf....i couldn't take it anymore... i hope i'm not exist in this world..(hahah)....but it's true...i really stress about those things.

whatever... i hope those fuc**** things will gone soon....go away from me..wth...bluek...

haro gasi...mantad baino...blog ku nopo nga hid dusun no dih.hari gopiok insaru moi pambasa blog ku....sumandak larak....aaratan oku noh kopio...kindat...kad tai bo...maan ku nopo da kopio yom...siuritos oku noh dih kabang dau ....mokirayou noh bogia kopio....oondos poh kanto gia rih....miagal podit osonong noh kopio yau hiti pomogunan.....oilaan ku bogia rih....kouyu uyu da tomod doho..haha...baya nopo la....minsiriba nopo kad molohing lohing....intaan ih koimbagu....koi koi...haha

bah...manhattan project....intaai toko noh ondum owonsoi ku kio...ehe

Confession of a broken heart...but...fighting Joel...

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Hey Joel...This post is to myself. Hope No one will comment this post...hehe..blek....

Few weeks ago, I've face a problem that very hard to explain. It's about a "Bad Love". It's Love that not allowed by nature...maybe??

I realised that, nothing I can do to protect that relationship. Every efforts that I put were just meaningless. That person even didn't trust me anymore. That person...ZE...decided to end just like that....I really can't accept the reasons why we were broken up. Almost 5 months we were known each other and suddenly ZE left me just like nothing. ZE thinks that it was the best way to solve our problem. I really hurt....in damn hurt that time....

Maybe I'm not good enough? Maybe I'm not love ZE enough?Maybe I'm over-controlled? or.........

Since then....I know, Love alone is not enough. It needs trust and humility. One thing I've learnt from this sweet memory is Love doesn't care who we are.....

I just hope ZE will happy with new life....new boyfriend....and new beginning...

This is maybe my fate.....loving a human...and that human didn't love me back...But it's ok...as long as that human will happy always....and I also will happy....

It's been a long time I kept this feeling that I love ZE very much.....and waiting ZE accept my heart and love....But it's ok if ZE reject me....I only hope the best for ZE and my love will never fade away to ZE....

I just want to tell ZE that I will always waiting....waiting to fall in love again...

Even I have to wait for a long time....it's ok....

and I hope this feeling will remain in my heart.....I hope no one will take it away from me.....I hope no one will appear in my life...I hope...no one will come and be my new .......hurm...

I wish ZE best of luck in everything you do......

Thanks for everything you've done to me.....

Thanks for hugs you gave me....and I miss it....

Last but not least....I will start a new life...without grief......I will prove that you are wrong for leaving me alone...in the middle of my journey.....

Don't worry...I will take care of myself....and be who I should to be.....Live in my own culture....Being a true medical student.....and never trust anyone....unless....my heart will re-open again by someone who is more better than you.....

I love you......

2008 evalution

2008 thought me so many things either good and bad things. When I think back what I've done for a year, I can see so many disappointment than happiness. I did so many BAD things than GOOD things. When I look into mirror...I say to myself, Joel...What you've done...what you've done...what you've done.... Maybe some people knew what I've done...and it was so horrible things. Haiz... I learnt so many things throughout this year. I learnt the meaning of sincerity, friendship and love. I also learnt about lies..and psychology weapon that I did to many people or more correct...victims. Believe or not...I can make people 'fall' infront of me ...begging and crying....just for 48 hours. haha...I know it's wrong to do that. No good.

2008... I bought many things that are quite expensive(expensive for me...maybe not expensive for other people...lol)..for example, my clothes, jeans, pants, shoes, handphones, specs, camera, and etc. Oh God...this is how I used the scholarship. Forgive me oh God.

2008...also thought me how to study like crazy. haha.... I used 15 hours everyday to study... reading like hell, memorising like hell, understand like hell and everything is like hell. Well, people always said that, learning is a part to success..Yeah, I believe that. So, to release my stress because of my study.... I spent my weekends to go to watch movie, hang out with my friends, go to church and sometimes sleeping and chatting with my friends. Haha, see...how I waste my time.LOL

The 4th day of 2009 give me a lot of vision to do this year. However, I don't like to share what are my visions for this year. LOL....Maybe next year, I will pleased to tell you. I hope so.

Last but not least, enjoy our life, enjoy what you doing, happy and smile in every troublesome.. and Trust Jesus. He leaves us never.....

Hurt

HURT

Seems like it was yesterday

When I saw your face

You told me how proud you were,

But I walked away

If only I knew what I know today

Ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms

I would take the pain away

Thank you for all you've done

Forgive all your mistakes

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To hear your voice again

Sometimes I wanna call you

But I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside

But I won't admit

Sometimes I just wanna hide

'Cause it's you I miss

And it's so hard to say goodbye

When it comes to this, ooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?

Would you help me understand?

Are you looking down upon me?

Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To have just one more chance

To look into your eyes

And see you looking back

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself, oh

If I had just one more day

I would tell you how much that I've missed you

Since you've been away

Ooh, it's dangerous

It's so out of line

To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself..By hurting you

when u hurt someone...u will blamed like hell. When u hurt, no one cares. It's not fair to be like be like this....not fair. I'm not be the best...but i don't want to be the rest. I'm trying so hard to protect our relationship...but seems, I'm just the only one who do that. You never help and take any action. The word "bye" that u always said.....seems...it's the end of everything....I don't know how much you care about me, how much you honest to me....but I hope...There is NO LIE between us......I'm hurt....I'm Hurt.....really Hurt......that I even couldn't bear it alone....I'm hurt....How could this happen to me?....